sometimes i think just because i managed to overcome leukemia, I can get everything to go my way. hihi
this sounds so familiar. have i written about this before? if i have, too bad.
one example is my banana boat. it's my favourite car in the world. when i found out that i could actually afford it, i saved up for a year so i could afford the downpayment. when the money was enough...i went and got the car.
it gave me problems the first day i drove it. once that got sorted, i was really happy with it for quite some time. then it started breaking down again here and there. and i continued to put my effort and money into making the car work again.
it will work for a couple of months, then i'll face another problem. this year it became more unstable, going into the workshop almost every month. i never really complained, i told myself that i love this car...i'm going to make it work unless one day the money becomes a major constrain.
but lately the unreliability of the car has started to bother me more. i drive it around constantly wondering if it will break again soon. people tell me to just sell it and get a new one, but i entertain that idea with a heavy heart. i love that car. it's what i've always wanted...i reply to all my friends.
i have a feeling the car is going to disappoint me again soon. and i'll continue giving it what it needs, like a possessed lover.
wait...
the car can't disappoint me.
I disappoint myself with my choices.
Maybe one day i will come to my senses.
a song dedicated to my banana boat...taken from Radzlan's Smelly Pillow Ballad.
"lucky i'm lucky...to have met you...
maybe just maybe...you know it tooooo..!
someday...i'll drive you up into the ocean,
then would you believe in me...?"
hahaha.
