Day +50 dan Sedikit Emosi

Dang! It's 8.30 AM and I'm late! Was planning to wake up an hour earlier so I could do more in the morning (exercise, thesis, etc)...but maybe I exerted myself a little last night and got tired. Today is Day +50 post transplant, and I'm halfway through to my 100 day mark. God has been really kind to me so far. Anyhoo, I heard this song yesterday and it reminded me of the many uncertainties that I'm currently faced with, on my way to recover from this bugger called leukemia. Actuallly, I do firmly believe that the leukemia is gone...I just have to make sure it doesn't come back! Trying to live with that is the scariest thing at the moment, for me.

Damien Rice - Cannonball

Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little harder to say what's going on

Still a little bit of your ghost, your witness
Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
That I can’t say what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love, taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love, taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon..
Stones taught me to fly
Love, taught me to cry
So come on courage
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

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